Sleeping baby 11/3/13

Today you are fast asleep on me and I'm wondering how in the world can my life get any better! You are already so big and so sweet and so perfect and my life is better because of you! I never knew such a little person could have such a huge impact on my soul! You are growing so fast you have two teeth almost coming in you fall asleep on your own and you start swim lessons on Wednesday! Only being 3 months old I feel like you have so much to offer your dad and I! We love you more than you will ever know! 

Scared

Today I read an article that scared me! Ahhh!!! It was an article on our media here in America. The reason it scared me is as I read it I was breastfeeding my sweet beautiful baby girl and realizing the this perfect, innocent, benevolent, pure of heart precious piece of heaven, daughter of God would grow up in a place as dirty and wicked as this place is and I don't think my anxiety has ever been so high! So I began to think really hard as to how I would try to counteract all the filth our society radiates through the tv and radio and magazines. And then it hit me I will need to be an example to her! I need to teach her from a young age so yes maybe even now while I'm feeding her I will have long talks about the woman I so desperately want her to be because I know that she will be the happiest if she avoids these media driven insane acts. As a mother I see its easy to fear but as I replace my fear with faith I will raise my daughter in confidence and know that she will be able and educated to make her own decisions in life. 

Mom problems

The last couple mornings I have woken up completely exhausted! I guess these night time feeding have gotten to me! Being a mom is some of the hardest work I've done in my life! I keep telling Brennan I just want to have a whole night of sleep! Then I realized that's say I want that but I don't! Nothing is better then waking up to the little noises and movements in my bed of Brielle ready for her feeding! Nothing is better than having her stuggled up beside me and feeling her every breath and movement. Nothing's is better than being her mom and one day I'm going to be wishing for these days back because like I said nothing is better! 

Late nights

Brielle, you love keeping me up late! You are just a little night owl! You love to just play and be awake! It's been so fun to see you grow and you are learning to smile so big!! Makes my heart just melt!! Everything about you makes me so unbelievably happy!! I never knew I could be so happy! I don't even remember a life without you! Thank you for making so much of my dreams come true! I will love you more than you ever know!! 

Earrings

Yesterday I went and had your ears pierced my little Elle! You look soo adorable and I love cute your little ears are! You are seriously the prettiest baby I ever did see! I am so happy being you mommy and your smiles make my heart sing! We are going to be best friends forever!! 

Late nights

Sometimes at 3am when the world is so quiet and its just you and me up my love I hear your sweet breath and I see your soft face and I believe I'm in heaven! You are sound asleep next to me and your daddy is next to you and I truly believe this is heaven! You are perfect in every way with your sweet cheeks and you adorable nose and like I said I believe I'm in heaven! Life is so unreal with you in it! I'm your biggest fan your greatest admirer and ill always be your closest friend! I want nothing but the best for you and I realize success comes with its own set of failures but you are beautiful and bright and full of so much light that you will succeed! When I was younger before I met your daddy I wondered what my life would be like! Who your daddy would be and what you my angel would be and I cannot tell you how wonderful you are! As you are sleeping next beside me I realize who I am, who I want to be and how amazingly blessed I am with your love! 

Something funny

08/23/13

So Brielle loves to eat! She would eat all day every second if she could! I strictly only feed her breast milk and she is the pickiest baby about it! She will latch on only to fall off a million times if I'm not sitting in the perfect position she likes. Also if she falls off she has taken to hitting me with her arm to get my attention to help her back on! It's the funniest thing I have ever seen! Not to mention she will no longer sleep in her own bed... Nope she has to sleep on me! When she does sleep on me she will sleep for 6 to 7 hours its a miracle! She has lots of personality that's for sure and she is only 4 weeks today! 

Brielle and her sleeping habits

08/22/13

 

Tonight Brielle you just wanted to sleep on mommy! So I let you! We cuddled all night and I loved every moment of it! Every time I tried to move you, you let out a good little scream like Sony you dare put me in my own bed! I wouldn't dream of upsetting you. A mother's job is to keep her little ones happy and to teach them how to be good people! I know with you I will do both! You are the sweetest baby! The best thing about you is you only want me most of the time! Makes mommy feel so good:) we are going to be best friends! And I will always remember these sweet moments when we cuddled all night and the world seemed to stop for just a moment to let me be with you! 

You can't get any more perfect... This I am positive about!! 

My little Elle

It's pretty amazing how Brielle and I have become quite the best friends! She depends on me and I depend on her! Some would think she depends on me more than I depend on her but they would be wrong! Although she may depend on me for her next meal or to make sure she is nice and clean, one day she will be self efficient because well, I will teach her to be. You don't have children to keep them locked up in your care forever, however as a parent that will always be a tempting thought. Considering the world seems to harsh for the precious baby you love so much. But when raising a child you hope they become successful and bring light to others. For Brielle I hope she find happiness in whatever that may be and that she makes this world a better place. My job is to love her and to teach her how to love others! She is only 2 weeks old and our little world together is so small for now but I know she will grow and as she does she will have many new opportunities in her life and as much as I want to keep her at 7lbs wrapped in my arms I know that is not where her happiness will lie, and as a parent it's no longer about your own personal happiness but all about my sweet children's' and the funny thing is as your children are happy, in exchange you as a parent could not be happier to see them have so much joy! I am so blessed and so overjoyed to be this perfect Angels mother! Nothing in my life has meant more to me! She really is my sunshine and I cannot believe The Lord trust me enough with such a beautiful creation as her! I promise you Brielle I will always do the best I can at being your mom! On another note Brielle had her first bath the other day. She pretty much lives bath time. Can you tell by her face?!

I love this girl with all that I am!! 

Blessing day 09/20/13

Little girl today was your blessing day and you were soo adorable!! I had the cutest little dress for you and headband to match!! The Friday before your blessing I has your ears pierced and grandma L gave you the sweetest bracelet.you even wore a necklace from grandma N that was a little gold heart shape necklace that all her kids wore on their blessing day even your daddy! Oh let's talk about your daddy! You have one special amazing dad who loves loves loves you! He gave you such a sweet blessing from our father in heaven! I can't believe in 6 days you will be 3 months! Sometimes when you are sleeping and I'm cuddling you so close I just pray you won't get to bug to soon and I try to capture this very picture of you in my mind forever! There has never been a greater blessing than you ever in my life! I'm beyond blessed to have you as my daughter! If you can't tell mommy loves to dress you up with sparkles and bows but those things are just fun they aren't important! What is important is that you know no one in this world loves you more than your mommy and you daddy!! 

You were born to do amazing things! This I know without a doubt! 

Brielleskis

Pretty much I love you little girl!! My heart can't contain it! Last night you didn't want to fall asleep until 3am which makes for a very tired mommy but as I was holding you late into the night and you finally fell asleep I thought how I wouldn't trade this moment for anything every moment spent with you is a moment that has bettered my life and I thank you for that!! There is nothing better than being your mother and having you as my daughter. 

Brielle and the chiropractor

So Brielle went to the chiropractor yesterday and I am pretty sure it was really great for her!! She seems much happier now that she was adjusted. She had one side that defiantly needed some help. We toilet her to Dr. Ross and he was amazing with her. He talked to her like she was a real person and I swear she was listening. It was just so crazy to know that the rest of forever this little girl will be in mine and her daddy's care forever. We are soo excited to help her grow to her greatest potential!! We love you so much Brielle Elaine!

Little miss

Little girl you love to stay awake with mommy whenever you can! You love it when I hold you close and we just lay around! No one else can comfort you quite like I can and I feel very privileged to have the great title of being your mother! You will never know how much I really love you how tired I can be but I can't fall asleep because I would rather stare at you and all your perfection! You are the most beautiful creation and I love you oh so very much! 

The greatest things about Brielle

Brielle is 13 days old today and she pretty much is amazing! She loves to eat and loves to sleep(during the day) she can roll on both her side. She can pretty much support her own head and is so strong! She can kick a tight wrap off if she wants and if her arms are ever wrapped up she is sure to set those free. She loves to move her arms! Her cry is soo cute it sounds like a hiccup and is so low! She has the prettiest eyes that look just like her daddy's not to mention a head that matched his as well! She loves to be held but won't cry when I put her down to sleep! Her ears are so tiny and pinned down so close to her head I love it! Her hair is so light and we will have to wait for it to grow in a bit! Sadly she has both her mother and he father's eyebrows, which is no eyebrows(sorry Brielle) she has cute dimples when she smiles, dimples on her back like her mommy and even dimples on her bum! She is beautiful in every way and has so much personality in her expressions. She has a scowl that says a million words and the best part of her is, she is mine forever and I plan on enjoying ever moment of her!

Brielle

Today Brielle is one week old which I can't believe and I still need to write her birth story!! Seriously this has been the fastest week of my life and I'm pretty sad about it since I have a feeling that's how her life is going to go! I have to learn to enjoy and soak up each moment with her! She is seriously the greatest blessing of all time! I really thought I knew what love was and now I realize I had no real clue! The first time I held her I felt like my definition of love was so wrong this whole time! She has given me an even deep ability to love and it is something unexplainable! There is nothing like holding your child in your arms and knowing you helped create such a beautiful person! The temple has never meant more to me than it does now! My small little family is forever! No other truth brings me quite as much comfort and happiness! Motherhood is so Devine and I am so blessed to be a part of this great plan and to raise my daughter in righteousness!! I love you Brielle like no one else ever will! 

Waiting for Brielle

The last couple days my husband and I have patiently been waiting the arrival of our beautiful baby girl! Her due date was 4 days ago and however I didn't expect her to come on the day she was due I didn't expect to be 4 days over due. Especially when around 1pm yesterday I started having contractions. Over 24 hours later we are still waiting for our little princess! There really isn't enough excitement in the world to express how my husband and I feel right now! We cannot wait to see those beautiful eyes of hers and have her in our arms! There is nothing in this world that we love more than her and it's been so fun to see our relationship grow as we prepare for this sweet piece of heaven to come into our home! I'm feeling so thankful and overly blessed to know that she is mine for eternity and that I get to have her forever! As long as time goes on my baby she will be! 

Easter

Easter is one of the greatest holidays the weather is so nice and family is always near! My nieces and nephews are always so cute and I love that it is a time to reflect on the atonement. Mostly this Easter has given me so much hope! Hope in the Savior that He lives and loves me. I can feel His presence in my life everyday. He has given me so many blessings and things to be grateful for! In the last 2 years my life has changed so much from the time I met my husband and we were married In God's temple to now having our beautiful baby girl come into our life! I can't help but think all this joy and happiness in my life is because of my dear redeemer. He payed the price so that I don't have to. My family is sealed forever now because of His great work and mission here on earth! I am forever in debt to my Father in Heaven and his son.

The husband

So I'm pretty sure that husbands are one of the greatest creations to man kind at least mine is. He seriously is such a loving, caring and sensitive man! Through out this crazy time of my hormones acting all haywire I have notices that Brennan has so much patience with me. Sometimes I have ridiculous moments that only he could ever possibly handle and still love and look at me the same. My love for him grows everyday. He has blessed me with so much. My whole life I have always wanted to be a wife and being his wife is better than any of my dreams. He is now making me a mother and helping me step into the unknown territory of raising our beautiful girl and I know without a doubt he will alway be an awesome husband and an even better father! He makes everyday bright and my eternity so joyful! Pretty much to sum it all up my life is wonderful because I married my best friend who will always be by my side making me a better person than I ever thought possible!

Pregnancy

So I'm going to post a lot about this pregnancy I'm sure just so I have the memories. Today I met with the midwife who will be delivering my baby and mercy gilbert hospital and it was seriously the best experience ever!!! I couldn't be happier!! I think this is going to be the best decision for me and my little girl! This week baby girl has decided she is going to kick my bladder like crazy meaning mom has to use the restroom ever 30 minutes. When I'm sleeping she wakes me with the startling huge kick meaning she must want me up. Other fun news I have heart burn like crazy! Seriously 24/7 and my baby bump is finally here I couldn't be more happier. Last week was the first time anyone has ever commented on my bump and asked when I was due and funny thing was I was in the ER waiting to see what was going in with Brennan's Collar bone!! So I guess I started showing at 22 weeks and I'm now 24 weeks a whole 6 months of making this little girl:) time is flying!! She means everything to me! I always thought I new what love was and I always thought I had a lot of love to give! Well I was wrong this little princess has taught me more about love than I ever knew possible. I now realize I have more love to give and my heart is much bigger than I ever knew! She isn't even here yet but ohh is she making a huge impact! This girl is going to change the world for so many and I can't wait to watch her grow!

Poor Brennan

My sweet husband had a very interesting spring break to say the least! The other night he was playing softball and fell leading to a very horrible break on his collar bone leading to a very unpleasant surgery. So for the past week I have been able to serve my husband and try to take care of him the best I could. For the last couple months he has done an awesome job taking care of me through out this pregnancy so it's been nice to do a little for him. He is incredibly amazing and never complains about pain! I am nothing like him! After surgery he was so funny! I was taking him home and locked our crazy dog, Lakota outside before he came in so she wouldn't jump on him. She gets to excited and loves us to much she can't help but say hi and get all crazy! When we walked in the house and she was so upset to be outside she was scratching and barking like crazy trying to get in. Brennan told me that she was missing a couple screws and was crazy and maybe he could give her some of his now that he had some in his collar bone. It was seriously cracking me up!! The main thing about this whole experience in trying to look for the good in all things even if it is a broken bone is that my husband and I depend on each other and The Lord in all things! Sometimes we may not exactly know what The Lord has in store for us but as we rely on each other and The Lord we can become stronger better people that love Him even with something like a broken Collar bone!!

our little girl!

Brennan and I are sooo over joyed to be having a sweet, beautiful baby girl! I never knew the power this little girl could have on my life.  She isn't even here yet and I can already tell I am forever changed by her.  My very existence has much more meaning.  The other day I read something that went like this... God's greatest gift to men is eternal life and His second greatest gift He gives to us is His children.  I feel so blessed to be receiving one of His children.  The responsibility is one I accept full heartily and I know at times I will feel overwhelmed, inadequate and even maybe I will feel like the task of motherhood is just not meant for me, but I also know without a doubt that before this life The Lord prepared me for this important time and role in my life and He has been preparing me everyday since and I can be a wonderful mother with His help! I wish that my baby girl could know how much I love her but I  don't  think she ever truly will until the day, many years from now when she makes her way into motherhood.  I remember growing up my mother would tell me everyday how much she loves me and I always knew she did but I don't think I ever truly understood the extent of her love until now as I feel my baby moving and living inside me. There really is nothing like a mother's love.  I feel so blessed that I get to carry this strong role in the Nansel family!  And I am so thankful for the example of my own mother to show me the way and still help teach and guide me as I step into one of the greatest chapters of my life! My baby girl is going to be one seriously loved child and she will have so many amazing examples in her life! Ahhhh I just cannot wait to be holding her in my arms!!!