Elle's first time at the playground 02/10/14

Firstly, I would like to say how I really want Brielle to be known as Elle. It has been my intention since the beginning to call her that so now I am starting to! Anyways so on Saturday we were lucky enoug to go to the park to celebrate Elle's cousins birthday, Jordan. He was turning 6. (Holy he is getting big!) so Brielle was able to play on the playground with some assistance of course! She started on the little swings. 

We had to keep her smokey in or she would try to eat the swing.., can you say eww... Gross!! I don't thing the baby swing gave her and such thrill! 

I think the slide was a little more her style. She would make the cutest face going down! It surprised her a couple times to dip down so fast! She loved it! 

She wasn't that impressed with the big kid swings either but since her daddy enjoys doing crazy "tricks" with her all the time that involve flips and being thrown in the air I can't imagine swings being to interesting either! Overall the park was a success. My baby is an outside baby for sure! She hates staying inside all day! Once she starts walking I'm in trouble though because she will be my on the go crazy crazy baby!! 

Our baby girl can scoot she is such a hoot! 02/05/14

Brielle Elaine has learned to scoot and it will be the death of me! It's so cute to see her get around with her head down on the ground and her butt up as she tries to make her way around the house! She is a sight to see and is getting strong I'm sure any day now we will see a full on crawl! The problem with her scooting and crawling means my baby is moible! That means I no longer can expect her to stay in one place... I learned that the hard way , when she fell of our bed earlier as I tried to put my contacts in! Luckily no harm was done just a very scared baby and an ever scareder mom! When the heck did my baby grow up and why!!!! I'm not ready for her to be independent! Although with her independence comes a new kind of aditude as well called throwing tantrums. Oh wait as I was saying why is my baby growing up!!! Even with all this she is an extremely loving kid! She smiles, laughs and giggles all the time! Not to mention when I come home from work she and she eyes me she instantly starts screaming and lunging for me! Ahhhh I love being this little girls mom! She completes me in so many ways! I may have been able to give her life and help create her for 9 months but she continues to renew me in ways that will last eternity. Now how do I ever say thank you for that! 

Dear Brielle 07/12/14

Brielle, 

Every day you wake me up! There are very few occations where that is reverse, and everyday I make sure to feed you and change you and kiss you and give you lots of smiles after the long night of sleep! Every morning I wake up thinking the same thing... How is it possible that my daughter is as beautiful as you! It really is mind blowing that you expell with all you have the most beauty I have ever seen! You are going like no other and that saddens me for only a moment and then it is replaced with the fact I am so blessed to see you grow! I hope now to teach you how to be a lovely, kind young women. Someone that even I can look up to a daughter of God and friend to all! This life gets difficult at times and you will fill overwhelmed by the world. You will feel it try to suck you down in its ways but you my love are stronger than that! You have more to do in this life then to buy into the promises of this world! If you bring good into the world you will see that in return good will indeed surround you! 

Christmas season

This Christmas is by far the best Christmas my heart has yet to experience! Brielle Elaine is easily the greatest gift to ever be had! At the moment Brielle is in my arms and I am rejoicing with so much cheer for the fact that I am this babes mother! I never thought having a daughter would be like this! All the love all the time all worried everything! I love with all my heart sometimes I swear my body will burst with love for her! All my time is set for her! I wake in the morning to see that happy, beautiful face and I dream at night of this sweet angelic mine! All my time is hers and I feel privileged to have a mind full of her! All my worries are for her! I have so much I wish I could protect this perfect baby from! I sometimes find myself late at night when she has gone to bed and looks so peaceful that I could just preserve this moment for ever! That she could lie asleep in my arms and that nothing could break this perfect moment in our lives! My greatest happiness come from her and however much I desire to keep her young  and my little baby I know she to deserves someday to have a child of her own and experience the joy I feel now!

Sleeping baby 11/3/13

Today you are fast asleep on me and I'm wondering how in the world can my life get any better! You are already so big and so sweet and so perfect and my life is better because of you! I never knew such a little person could have such a huge impact on my soul! You are growing so fast you have two teeth almost coming in you fall asleep on your own and you start swim lessons on Wednesday! Only being 3 months old I feel like you have so much to offer your dad and I! We love you more than you will ever know! 

Scared

Today I read an article that scared me! Ahhh!!! It was an article on our media here in America. The reason it scared me is as I read it I was breastfeeding my sweet beautiful baby girl and realizing the this perfect, innocent, benevolent, pure of heart precious piece of heaven, daughter of God would grow up in a place as dirty and wicked as this place is and I don't think my anxiety has ever been so high! So I began to think really hard as to how I would try to counteract all the filth our society radiates through the tv and radio and magazines. And then it hit me I will need to be an example to her! I need to teach her from a young age so yes maybe even now while I'm feeding her I will have long talks about the woman I so desperately want her to be because I know that she will be the happiest if she avoids these media driven insane acts. As a mother I see its easy to fear but as I replace my fear with faith I will raise my daughter in confidence and know that she will be able and educated to make her own decisions in life. 

Mom problems

The last couple mornings I have woken up completely exhausted! I guess these night time feeding have gotten to me! Being a mom is some of the hardest work I've done in my life! I keep telling Brennan I just want to have a whole night of sleep! Then I realized that's say I want that but I don't! Nothing is better then waking up to the little noises and movements in my bed of Brielle ready for her feeding! Nothing is better than having her stuggled up beside me and feeling her every breath and movement. Nothing's is better than being her mom and one day I'm going to be wishing for these days back because like I said nothing is better!