Sleeping baby 11/3/13

Today you are fast asleep on me and I'm wondering how in the world can my life get any better! You are already so big and so sweet and so perfect and my life is better because of you! I never knew such a little person could have such a huge impact on my soul! You are growing so fast you have two teeth almost coming in you fall asleep on your own and you start swim lessons on Wednesday! Only being 3 months old I feel like you have so much to offer your dad and I! We love you more than you will ever know! 

Scared

Today I read an article that scared me! Ahhh!!! It was an article on our media here in America. The reason it scared me is as I read it I was breastfeeding my sweet beautiful baby girl and realizing the this perfect, innocent, benevolent, pure of heart precious piece of heaven, daughter of God would grow up in a place as dirty and wicked as this place is and I don't think my anxiety has ever been so high! So I began to think really hard as to how I would try to counteract all the filth our society radiates through the tv and radio and magazines. And then it hit me I will need to be an example to her! I need to teach her from a young age so yes maybe even now while I'm feeding her I will have long talks about the woman I so desperately want her to be because I know that she will be the happiest if she avoids these media driven insane acts. As a mother I see its easy to fear but as I replace my fear with faith I will raise my daughter in confidence and know that she will be able and educated to make her own decisions in life. 

Mom problems

The last couple mornings I have woken up completely exhausted! I guess these night time feeding have gotten to me! Being a mom is some of the hardest work I've done in my life! I keep telling Brennan I just want to have a whole night of sleep! Then I realized that's say I want that but I don't! Nothing is better then waking up to the little noises and movements in my bed of Brielle ready for her feeding! Nothing is better than having her stuggled up beside me and feeling her every breath and movement. Nothing's is better than being her mom and one day I'm going to be wishing for these days back because like I said nothing is better! 

Late nights

Brielle, you love keeping me up late! You are just a little night owl! You love to just play and be awake! It's been so fun to see you grow and you are learning to smile so big!! Makes my heart just melt!! Everything about you makes me so unbelievably happy!! I never knew I could be so happy! I don't even remember a life without you! Thank you for making so much of my dreams come true! I will love you more than you ever know!! 

Earrings

Yesterday I went and had your ears pierced my little Elle! You look soo adorable and I love cute your little ears are! You are seriously the prettiest baby I ever did see! I am so happy being you mommy and your smiles make my heart sing! We are going to be best friends forever!!